I grew up living in a bubble. No, not the kind like in the movie, Bubble Boy. (I can’t believe I am even admitting that I have actually seen that movie.) I went to the same small church and a small private Christian school all my life. I was a very shy and timid child and I did not have friends outside of people from church, school & my family.
As I got older and started working public jobs and making friends with people in “outside world”, I really began to see how small the “bubble” was that I had lived in. Those first couple semesters at community college were so difficult for me. Talk about a small fish in a big pond.
The more I was out in the real world, the more I started to resent growing up in that bubble. I felt like I been too sheltered, too naive and too closed minded. I felt like I wasn’t given a chance to make my own decisions or to see the world from all angles.
Now that I am the wise old age of 31, (ha ha) with all that is going on in the world, I am starting to wonder if living in a bubble was really such a bad thing. I see more angry words and people, more people who hate Christians, who spew their “opinions” and just don’t care if they offend anyone or not than my heart can bear some days.
As much as I want to be a light in a dark world, as much as I want to be an encouragement to others, I seem to end up feeling more discouraged myself than anything. I have gotten to the point that I just want to leave all the places that I am trying to be a shining light in. I just want to go back to my bubble where everyone was nice and everyone liked me and loved Jesus too.
I know that is not the right attitude to have, but how can I keep trying to shine a light, show Jesus’ love and grace to people who are mean, angry, greedy & just plain not nice? It’s wearing me out. I feel like I am losing.
As I have been considering and praying about all of these things, I have been reminded of the words Apostle Paul wrote to the churches & new believers as he was ministering to others.
Galations 6:9 – “Let us not become weary in doing good, for at the proper time we will reap a harvest if we do not give up.”
2 Corinthians 4:1 – “Therefore, since through God’s mercy we have this ministry, we do not lose heart.”
1 Corinthians 15:58- “Therefore, my dear brothers, stand firm. Let nothing move you. Always give yourselves fully to the work of the Lord, because you know that your labor in the Lord is not in vain.”
I think Paul could relate to how I feel. I am sure there had to be times when he was weary of doing good, when he was discouraged by the lack of progress he seemed to be making. Obviously others were feeling that way too as there are many other verses where Paul talks about “pressing on”.
Even though I am tempted to go back into my happy little bubble, I know that I can’t shine a light from there. It might feel safer, I might not get hurt in my bubble, but I also won’t be able to experience the richness of God’s blessings or fulfill His purpose for my life if I stay in my own little world.
What about you? Can you relate to how I am feeling? Have you ever felt discouraged while trying to be a light to others? Feel free to comment & share!