Pulled, pushed, pressured and seeking balance

Two weeks ago I went on a very last minute vacation to Pigeon Forge, TN with my grandparents. We were gone for 5 days and I was only online twice during the trip. I had some work to do the 2nd night we were there so I spent the evening in the hotel working while my grandparents enjoyed a night out. After that I didn’t even touch or turn on my laptop for 3 whole glorious days! It was the first time in 15 months since I had not turned my laptop on.

I haven’t taken even a full day off since March so it was long overdue.  Those 5 days away with my grandparents and the 3 offline just really made realize what was truly important in my life and how terribly out of balance my life is.

It was heaven, until I got home and saw the million emails and Facebook messages to go through. I really wanted to just do a mass delete and pretend I never saw most of the messages…

There are days I wake up and almost have a panic attack when I open my Outlook and Facebook. I try to wait and get online after I have been up a couple of hours. I try to do a little housework, devotions, and exercise sometimes too (but  not often enough here lately).  I know once I sit down with my laptop that I am a goner.  I’ll be there all day.

There are so many times I feel like I am wasting my life away. I don’t have time to date or have a relationship. I don’t have get to spend enough time with family, friends, volunteering for causes I care about. I spend the majority of my life alone, just me & my laptop here in my little house…  I feel like I am just missing out on so many of the important things in life.

I am still trying to juggle two business and blog too and it is just not working.  I feel pulled in so many directions, pushed by so many people and pressured by the emails and messages and “emergencies” that never stop coming in.

I’m trying  hard to get my life back in balance. I must get it back in balance sooner than later. I am going to fall apart from being so pulled, pushed and pressured if I don’t get things back in balance.  And it’s just not worth it.

I set down after we got back from TN and created a new work and life schedule. So far I’m doing pretty good with sticking with it. Basically I am blocking off certain hours and days when I work on certain aspects of my direct sales business, design business and blog as well as household chores too.  I have checklists and task lists for each day and each category.

It’s all about prioritizing. It’s also important to take time off and offline. Even if you still get the emails and messages – people can wait, business can wait, making money can wait. Spending time with family and friends, taking time for yourself, making time to spend in your daily walk with Christ – those are things that do not need to get pushed back or just squeezed into your schedule when you have time.

Whatever is pulling, pushing or pressuring you right now I encourage you to take a step back and evaluate your priorities and how you are spending your time.  If you see that you are wasting precious time too, then make some changes. Figure out a new schedule, cut out what’s not important, stop letting yourself be so stressed out by the pressure.  Life is too short my friends. It’s just too short to not be doing what you love and spending your time, energies and thoughts with those & on what really matters and makes you happy.

“When you find yourself stressed, ask yourself one question: Will this matter in 5 years from now? If yes, then do something about the situation. If no, then let it go.” – Catherine Pulsifier

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