- Why am I here?
- Why am I working so hard?
- Why is it so hard for me to focus on my goals?
- Why can I not seem to stay on top of things?
- Why am I always so tired?
- Why do I care so much?
- Why am I asking why so much?
I have been having a lot of days like that recently. I am so behind on so many projects. I have dozens of partially written articles. I have tons of new project ideas. I have so much I want to do. I just don’t seem to have enough time, energy or focus to get it all done. I feel like I’m just constantly chasing loose ends.
I used to want to change the world. I wanted to make a difference, leave a legacy, help other people. Now all I want to do is take a nap. (ha ha) I seriously don’t know how all the parents out there do it. I’m exhausted just keeping up with myself and my career. I cannot imagine having kids and a spouse to take care of too.
I see all these other bloggers who have families and work full-time and they still manage to get posts up on their blogs several times a day. I just don’t know how they do it. My brain is on overload with all the design projects I’ve been working on lately, charity events, family responsibilities, taking care of household chores. I’m exhausted. I’m too tired to get my thoughts together and post anything worthwhile.
When I get overwhelmed I start to question my own “why” and start asking all those other why questions. I start to doubt myself. I start to think I was crazy for thinking I could really accomplish all my goals. I start to wonder if maybe my dreams are just too big. I wonder what’s wrong with me that I can’t get it all done when others can?
“Do not undermine your worth by comparing yourself with others.” – Anon.
“Rome wasn’t built in a day” and obviously this blog won’t be built that fast either. I need to accept that fact and just keep focused on doing all the little things that need to be done. I need to learn to not bite off more than I can chew. I need to learn to not be so hard on myself. What is the rush anyways? I don’t have to conquer the world today.
“How do you eat an elephant? One bite at a time.” – Anon.
What about you? Do you get frustrated when you are overwhelmed with life and work and start to question everything too? Do you have any tips on staying focused on your goals when the going gets tough? Please feel free to share your thoughts by commenting below!
PS – the picture in this post is of me & one of my best friends. It was taken in St. Peter’s Square in Rome in 2005 during a missions trip we took to Italy.